I'm NOT Useless (Not even 30%)

So, today was school, and I haven't updated my blog for I think 3 o 2 days.... But big news, we won the drama competition, we actually did! :D But competition's not over at all, it's just about to start. Next is Sandakan, wow, so looking forward to it...... The competition is going to be more
intense and hard, and I can't wait to see what the other school's have been doing:) Oh yeah, and here's to the person (I won't say who) who said I was 30% useless, NO WAY!!!!

Emotions

I know that many people who create blog vent out their emotions on it, but I don't and can't because blogs aren't private at all.... But oh well, this is probably a stupid post anyway that I'm ruining... So drama competition is tomorrow, so nervous, I mean, my part isn't important at all, but just the training all those months is finally going to be payed off, I just have this itching feeling that will win oh.... I know that I've been showing a negative and emo demeanor, so I'm sorry if someone from the drama team is reading this, that I act like a retarded, emo, whiny bitch, I just like don't know how to act more differently, it's just me I guess.... And yeah, I love being in the drama team it's like one big family.... :)

I'm So Unhealthy:(

Hello there, so today was quite good.... I went too school BUT because of the circumstances of the drama competition being so near, I went out early, like after the second period:) So drama went out as usual until about 3pm.... During drama class, i found out, that I have an awkward walk and that my body is awkward, I have like lots of back fats, so I tried push ups, and only did 3, it's so useless like me. I'm so freaking unhealthy that now I wonder how long I will even live.... huhhh, I wish I took better care of myself....... After that, nothing else happened........

Hi

It's Sunday, but I missed Sunday school and church because I woke up too late.... So, today went through normally, and I hate normal, but anyways, my mom asked me to help take out all the stuff in her closet, and I did.I found a video camcorder and a polaroid camera, and my mom gave it to me..... That was enjoyable:) So, it's a boring boring day........ Sorry for the short post.....

Update: June 20, Sturday

Sorry I didn't update yesterday, internet disconnected suddenly.... So anyways, today is Saturday which means no school:) Today was disappointingly BORING, urgh........ Oh yeah, I took my dog to the doctor for a check up, and they had to bandage her, but she kept on opening it, so the vet had no choice but to leave it open, so I have to take my dog to the vet again tomorrow... But besides that, the only other thing is that I just came back from Pizza Hut... So that's all:)

Update: June 18, Thursday

It's Thursday!!! Oh wait, I hate Thursdays :) So, school.......... I almost failed Geography actually I did fail :( but then teacher gave us all an extra three marks, thank gosh........ Phew, now, that's out of the way, everything else is dull...... Except for Drama, Drama is never dull :) I was suppose to sell my phone to my friend but my mom was all bitchy about it, and when I still asked her about it, she actually cried and gave me the phone complaining on how I should give it to my grandma, I feel kinda like crap right now, so yeah, that's all....

Postponed:(

So, school, urg, I hate school, anyways, school went though as normal, study this, study that, talk here, talk there, but the thing that really shocked me was that the Drama competition has been postponed and there was no practice today, damnit! They don't have a real date yet, I bet it was because because the other stupid schools complained or something, urgh..... So that's all for today, because everything is pretty much dull as dishwater so bye....:(

Just Can't Stop Smiling :)

So, I woke up late today and missed school, I would be happy for that, but I don't know, I kinda wished I went to school (weird, right?) But, ofcourse, trying to be as comitted as I possibly could I couldn't ditch Drama practice...., it's like the thing that keeps me moving (as corny as that sounds) And I just don't why, I can't get pissed today...... I just can't stop smiling..... Huh, well the day went on as normal, went home at 4 and oh yeah!!! We got to take my dog back from the vet!!!! Woah!!!! I'm so happy!!!! :):):):) more smiles!!! Goodnight!Oh My Gosh!!!! Just 3 more days to the Drama Competition!!!

Last Day Of Holiday

I love you, dear Holiday, you lifted me up when I was sad, you convincedme that life was worth it and taught me so many things that I could not live without, I cherished the times we spent together but sadly you had to go, and leave me hear all alone to rot..........

Okay, what I wrote up there ^^^ is absolute crap, but that's not the point, the point is, holiday's almost over, damn! I miss not being in school to study (other than Drama of course), I miss sleeping all day, I miss the times when I would go on facebook when I'm bored or feeling down and I miss youtubing for hours and hours just to get a laugh, ahhh, sweet holiday.... But as they say, all good things must come to an end, uhhh, I wish it was longer............ Oh yeah, and I would like to give a big fat thanks to the doctor that saved my dog's life:)
4 more days to drama competition!!!

Scheduled Outage?

My dog's blood on my bed

Sorry, I didn't have time to post yesterday, I was too busy because my dog got sick, it was really scary because her stomach suddenly leaked blood everywhere, so I was screaming to my grandma to take her to the vet because my uncle was suppose to do that, but he was so late, and I just couldn't wait, so we rushed quickly to the vet clinic and pretty much after that everything was alright....

So I woke up today, made a tweet on my twitter, in fact I don't even anyone else I know uses twitter, so I'm all alone :((sad) But anyways, it's about 12.43 pm oh yeah, I almost forgot, what the hell is this scheduled outage???? Questions in my head:
Are they going to delete all my post??? Is it temporary??? How long???
But that's all for me, oh yeah, can someone please register on twitter.com and find me, I'm so lonely:(, lol....

5 more days to drama competition!

My Dog

So today went by normally, went to school, met my friends, had fun, that's pretty much it. Bla, bla, bla, I went back home at 4 pm, and went online almost entirely because I was so bored... But being alone in my house feels much better than being with family, well, at least for me. My dog is in my room right now and his really really really hungry, so I'm going to go feed him, that's all!






Seven more days to drama competition!

My Overall Fake Attitude

Woke up at seven am went to school, did drama practice and got bored..... Fakeness, the one thing that I admit I sometimes am, I'm ashamed of it when I first realized it at drama, Emo fakeness, judging people, I realized that I have to stop all this shit but at the same time remember who I am as a person and not if other people judge me... So what? If you think I'm a retard, I'm a retard, If you think I'm gay, I'm gay, I don't really care anymore, I'm just trying to be me. So at school I smiled more, talked more, trying getting read of all the fakeness that corrupts me. Well, other than that, nothing much happened, me and Roussell talking to each other all day. Other than that, have a safe flight back James!


8 more days to Drama competition!

It's An Emo World Out There

Okay, okay, for a bunch of people that know me this is the thing they often call me, "Retard"(lol) and "Emo", but anyways I'm posting to talk about Emo, I guess when I don't speak and try to look as not annoying as possible I come across as emo, I admit that I've been truly emo in my life, but I don't feel Emo most of the time, I might look Emo on the outside but I feel okay inside, so I just wanted to write this to speak what I'm feeling, that's all....

Update: Tuesday, June 09 2009

So, my sister woke me up at nine in the morning with her cousin, because they were having some kind of sleepover last night. My mom told them to wake me up because I had to go to drama PRACTICE and I did. So I arrived there at 10.30ish, Roussell was there already, so i went and talked to him for a little while, probably being very socially awkward at the same time, when we realized that most of the drama team was gone. So we went to the Indian restaurant to eat along with Chin because we thought they were there, and they were not there, but oh well, we ate and went back, by the time we went back, they were already there warming up.. So practice soon ended fairly early, probably because my dad picked me up fairly early to visit my Grandma in the hospital, and everything else was me in my room resting, me feeding my dogs and me feeding my cats, well, that's all for now, goodnight!

Monday Night Blues

I took this picture today, a bag full of cigarettes. It's not much, but I feel a little moody tonight. All alone at home, my sister's are at my uncle's house, my dad is at work, my mom is at Tawau. But it's normal, I get left alone at home quite often now, overtime schedules and no family ties, sigh....... Sometimes I just feel like taking a puff, but I can't because I'm too much of a pussy (Ha ha) and I don't want anything to go wrong with my lungs because it's already caught asthma and I'm against it, but NOT the people using it.

Love The Team

So, I had to go to school for some extra curricular activities (drama), I arrived at 7.30 am, I didn't know it was ACTUALLY 9 am, because my sim cad was brokened, I was wearing my "I'm That Good" shirt, as seen up there for a little confidence. Ofcourse, there was the beautiful stage......


The glamorous backstage.............




And not to mention, TOILETS! Ha ha....



Then we went out to eat, Indian food, and came back to do a little short play to make us not bored, the drama team is really like family to me, just like my friends, anyways that's all for now.

Messy Day To Start With

I woke up at seven am? I think..... Anyways, my room was messy, as always............
It was a sunday, didn't go to church, i forgot, there's no sunday class today, or at least that's what i think and the day went by without anything memorable.... ugh.... My internet bugging me all day, crashing by itself, it's so annoying that I grabbed my modem and threw it agains the wall, ugh, very slow day.


Oh yeah, sunday, which means the school break is half over, damn, I wanted it to last forever, but I guess all good things must come to an end, right?