My Internet Journal

Contemplating

2010-05-21T06:02:00.001-07:00

A friend of mine recently got nomitated for having an outstanding blog, and i thought to myself, i wish i could be like her.... Urghhh, personally, i dislike my blog... I'm contemplating on whether or not to move to wordpress, *sigh, i think i should start posting more photos, liven up my blog for once...

This blog has become so dull... My posts... what can i say? their the pure definition of boring..... I need to make touch ups here and there.. I want to have a good blog, I don't want my blog to just be dull and normal... I want something unique, something fresh, something people would read and think "Wow, he is a good blogger" or something similar to that.

I need to make a change to my blog but i don't know how, i'll have to figure out something eventually, not just let it rot like what it is now.... Anyways, I apologize for the ramblings in this post and I hope I did not waste any of your precious time

As always, goodbye, until the next time i post

You're someone new when you're online

2010-05-14T10:57:00.000-07:00

That is so true, we are different when we're online, we're much more nicer, much more confident, much more independent when we're online.... This is the dilemna, when you meet someone on facebook and their so nice and all then when you meet them in real life, they don't even want to look at your face. Darn, i've had a few experiences like that... Why do we have to be so fake online?

Well today, the LS Drama Team, yes, including me, had to perform for La Salle Day and Teacher's Day, nope, i didn't feel any nerves as it wasn't a competition... and Yes, i sucked... In fact, most of us didn't want to perform, but when we heard that the money we would earn from it would directly go to Greenleaf Theatre, we all thought again, but it was also the bond we had with each other that pushed all of us to even want to perform :D So, what else? Oh yeah, damnit, i didn't get to see A Nightmare On Elm Street with Abraham, Kieran and Nabiel... I had to go, and i went home early, without even saying goodbye to anyone, accept for Max, damnit :(

Anyways, i watched Robin Hood just now, gosh, it was pure and utter CRAP, it was the first time in a LONG TIME that i slept in the cinema while watching a movie, it was so dull. I have a head ache now, due to me sleeping on that cinema chair... Ouch

Well till' the next time I post Goodnight :)

Update

2010-05-01T05:41:00.000-07:00

We won the Drama competition 2010, i should be happier right? But no... I don't know why... Maybe it's because I now have a new found guilt for the other schools (especially Bahang and Convent)

I didn't really expect to win again, this is like the third time in a row so i was utterly shocked when they announced La Salle as the winner of the Drama Competition 2010... Apparently it was State Levels, so we're probably going to go to nationals, well, i hope it's in KL....

We celebrated too, we celebrated at Upperstar in Lintas, eating food and stuff to celebrate our victory, then we went to this place called Toyz, it was a toy store/cafe/shisha place, NO, I DID NOT HAVE ANY SHISHA, i chose not to, well, that and i left pretty early...

Just came back from Confirmation Seminar '10, it was SORT OF FUN, but honestly, i was high with all the dancing and loud singing that i don't know whether i was thinking right... I honestly don't know whether I acted trippy and fake 'cause i didn't realize anything 'till it was over....

I'm now thinking, thinking, thinking...

Well, for now, Goodbye :)

2010-04-27T06:33:00.000-07:00

I didn't go to school today, I chose not, simply because of pure and utter laziness.... There was no Drama today, and competition is this thursday, so i decided to give myself a rest.... Well, i wasn't alone, James and Max slept over in my house last night AND tonight, yes, we're all going to school together tomorrow. Yes, at least I'm not alone

So.... How's life? Well, there have been some ups and downs recently, but overall, life's good, so corny right.

So... until my next post, goodbye and goodnight :D

Okays, 2010

2010-04-21T07:04:00.001-07:00

2010 is a pretty hectic year for me... Urgh, PMR, Drama, PMR, Conflicts, PMR, School, PMR.... As you probably noticed, I'm taking PMR this year, yes, that means I'm in form 3 this year...I know what you're all thinking, that I'm really young, muahahahahaha....

Hmmmm, I just want to get done with PMR fast and hopefully get grades that are worthy enough to enter Pure Science (4 Vega)... Hopefully, I can get all A's XD so pray for me guys....

Anyways, other than PMR, nothing much has happened to me recently... Well.... then there's

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, I got an iPad :D

Hazli's Sister's AKA Nurul's Birthday

2009-11-27T07:38:00.000-08:00

So today was jogging/swimming day, gosh... the jogging track is so short, in fact it's just a car park and about 3 minutes into it, asthma attack already.... I had an asthma attack the night before, and I'm not used to jogging so don't blame me please... I was with Hazli, Valentine and Kristy (who i never met before, so weeeeeeee) And then after my struggle with jogging we went with circuits, gosh, so hard... I'm not used to crunches and pushups and all that excercising, so exhausting for me....... Then it was swimming time, the swimming pool there was closed because it was a public holiday....

So we went to waterworld instead! Yes, the one in Taman Tun Fuad, have to pay RM 10 again...... Hazli drove us there XD And that's when i realized, even though i was horrible at circuits and jogging, at least i was good in swimming :) It was fun, but IT IS NOT A LAPSE POOL It's way too shallow. Then we were there until around 12 pm then we sent Kristy and Valentine back home and drove to Hazli's friends house (I am so sorry, i forgot his name :( ) And we picked him up and headed over to Hazli's house to prepare for his sister's birthday XD I helped prepare the sausages, crab sticks, etc, all to be hung on a stick XD to be reheated in the boiler

Then the party started at around 7pm, where Valentine came XD So we ate, sang happy birthday and watched Mtv afterwards XD Chat with new people like Tracy and Eva laughes, look at tv then i went back, i was the first one to go home, so Hazli please tell me soon what happened next XD 10.30 pm I went home and the party still hasn't ended...

I regret being bloody stupid

2009-11-22T07:41:00.000-08:00

I regret laughing when i don't want to

I regret spending so much bloody cash on stupid things

I regret buying/giving things to unapreciative bastards

I regret letting people force me

I regret being such a bloody coward that I can't stand up for myself

I regret not studying hard to enough so that i could sail through the exams

I regret listening to crap

I regret saying swear words too much

I regret for not being consistent in anything

I regret being a lazy ass

I regret for not being focused

I regret accepting unknown friend requests on facebook

I regret adding strangers

I regret judging people

I regret being myself

But i DON'T regret this post because it make me feel so much better

Love this song.......... for now

2009-11-09T18:36:00.000-08:00

So, hey, today is suppose to be sukan tara, but i'm lazy as hell, i'd rather take my headphones and listen to music XD Hahahaha, I'm such a lazy ass........ StudyStudyStudy PMR next year, so I have to buck up for that because I flunked this exam, I CANNOT fail PMR :(

Favourite Song Of The Moment:

Damien Rice - The Blowers Daughter

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her skies

I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you...
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new

Hello Today

2009-11-05T03:08:00.001-08:00

So how was you’re day?

Anyways, life is a blur after the whole Drama thing ended….. “I WANT IT BACK! I WANT IT BACK !” Exam’s over, my results are underwhelming, amazingly underwhelming :(

And school? School sucks……Badly, I just want it to end soon……. I missed school for two days, and hopefully more school days, but have to start going, need to get my pocket money for the rest of the year….

Life sucks after the end of the Drama Journey, I want Malaysian Breakfast back, I want Inanam back, I want to go back to Sandakan, I want to visit Penang again, but they’ll just stay as memories… I want the memories back, I want to relive my drama family, i want to meet them, keep in touch, hang out….. Most of them are in SPM, so I can’t bother anyone now……… Next year, new script, new actors, new team, new teacher….. :( Well, we still have the same Hazli XD and that’s good enough………… for now :p

REUNION AFTER SPM IS A MUST XD

My Thank You List

2009-10-26T23:44:00.000-07:00

Thanks Valentine, for keeping up and not being pissed about my clumsiness in Penang, i read your blog, director next year XD and i also read that I missed the FINAL discussion, i teared up realizing that i spent the final night with Sarawak and not with you guys, so I'm sorry everyone, and thanks Valentine XD

Thanks Woosnam, for rocking the stage as Uncle David, so close to best actor, and in my personal opinion, i thought you should have won over Selangor XD thanks for keeping up with my sutpid antics XD

Thanks Raul, because, let's face it, you're an awesome friend, and your incredibly matured, INCREDIBLY and always giving great advice, gonna miss you, have to admit XD

Thanks Ralph, for being our director, for being our friend, what more can i say? your the man, the datuk, the leader, without you, we would be lost, well, I would....

Thanks Chin, thanks for your jokes, thanks for accepting me for who i am, you don't know how much i will miss, well, we all wil, your AWESOME

Thanks Adriance, for being so hardworking and creative with the props and all, i don't think we can find anyone as hardworking as you, it's rare to find a person so hardworking like you

Thanks Jude, thanks for taking the role i made crappy and turning it into something marvelous XD thanks, even though you're popular, you are living proof that cool people are nice too XD

Thanks Andreas, for being so nice and positive, you brighten up my dark side :D

Thanks James, for being my friend :) despite the fact i'm iffy, thanks for being with me every step of the way since form 1 again :D

Thanks Roussell, for forcing me to join the drama team even when i didn't want to, it was the best thing anyone has done for me, and thanks for putting up with me every step of the way since early last year :)

Thanks Raphael, for being my friend, and i hope you join drama next year, WE NEED YOU, you're a brilliant actor, always thinking outside of the box but also thinking inside of the box when that is needed

Thanks Nathaniel, for always being nice to me, I appreciate you kadazanness XD

Thanks Orlando, for keeping up with me, thanks for still talking to me, after i repeatedly bugged you during the competition XD

Thanks Cikgu Haslinda, I... I'll miss you teacher ALOT, no teacher can replace you, thank you for keeping up with me and for still having me as a tompinai after all the silly clumsy mistakes in penang XD

Thanks Hazli........ for everything, you're the person i can open up to and your the most hardworking person in the team, thanks for everything, even postponing you're exams for us? You rock Haz XD

New Post, Don't be sad

2009-10-23T01:59:00.000-07:00

The journey is officially over

It's the end, Penang is over, and the journey that started in March 2009 has come to a full stop...
So for an update of things this is what has happened:
1) Sabah took home the runner up position in the English drama National Competition 2009

2) Selangor took home the 1st Place trophy

3) Sarawak took home a well deserved third place

Well, I'm gonna do a mini critique, I'll try to limit the negativity, so sorry if you get offended XDS

So we didn't get to see the previous seven schools, which incuded KL, Putrajaya and Malacca, cause I really wanted to see them, damnit :(

But from what I heard they were GOOD BUT NOT GREAT, so I was relief about that...

Than competition time, the nerves couldn't be held back, the emotions couldn't be held back, I cried like a baby, okay i admitted it, but it was an emotional day that really payed off XD

So we got on stage and we did our thing, i thought we did the best we could, okay i messed up a little with the projector, but i thought we did fantastic XD So we got back to the hotel, had out lunch, packed the props and went back to the auditoreum to sit for the next 8 states

Kelantan
Their play was weird, funny and awkward at the same time, their topic was REALLY sensitive it was about a daughter who was raped by her own father and she's pregnant... HEY!!! I got to see a celebrity, I SAW LADY GAGA, okay maybe not really lady Gaga, but there was someone who looked alot like her, complete with the avant garde costume, futuristic make up and fake blonde wig, it was something out of this world, okay, she gives birth to a dead disturbing looking dead puppet baby, and the play ends with the fatstabbing the daughter to death, and if you don't find that confusing i don't what is, especially the ending when the father cover his murdured daughter in a bunch of fake leaves, WITHOUT even covering her head, and the mother goes around looking for her not-so-well hidden daughter, and when she does all she does to her wicked husband is push him, WTF, if i was, or anyone was that mother i would burn him alive... And all this magical beings pop out of nowhere, didn't make much sense....

Labuan
I went out to eat burger while they were loading the props but i still came back in time to watch the ending, well, i did watch a little of the beggining, they used grim reaper costumes to carry the huge banner that reads "The Recorder", the title of their play, and when i came back i saw that they ONLY HAD ONE PROP, a couch that looked nice but they had to make it ugly by covering it with a yellow cloth..... There was one actor though, despit ehaving a PSYCHOTIC recorder obsessed character, he did an awesome job in terms of acting, it was amrvelous, seriously..... Had the entire team been this strong, they would have been the frontrunners, but too bad, their story was well, i don't know much cause i was out, but it was about a recorder....The flute thing not the tape recorder.... Labuan by the way joined last minute so i'm not surprised they only had one prop to work with...

Sarawak
Voice projection, I would give a 11/10, they were perfect in that... Initially i thought they were relly bad, and i only thought they were loud because of the boom microphones, BUT, there was a sudden blackout with mic and THEY STILL SOUNDED THE SAME, OMG, i was shocked, they were damn loud!!! But their story was.... pretty bad.... It was about four friends trying to sell the body of a fifth friend who recently passed away because they were too porr and too busy to do a funeral, BUT the friend wasn't actually dead, he was playing a trick on them, and they signed a deal to take the body away from them for $15,000, okay dead can't cause that much, cause I would have made a fortune if it was like that, just kidding :p So once they do they realize that the dealer was a fraud/thief/ripoff and the body's missing, so THEN the dead man pops out of nowhere and shocks them... They apologize and bal bla bla, and he seemingly forgves and goes away BUT a perimedic team shows up out of nowhere to carry the dead body away, OMG, that person was a ghost, I know it may sound fun, but thrust me, it was VERY confusing to understand, I had to ask someone about the play to get all the info i'm writing about now, the Sarawak team in person though, well, their iffy, just kidding, THEIR AWESOME!!!! Especially the two friends, Nate and Audrey, their like so nice, i didn't expect the other states to be so nice XD But we're both non-sememenanjungs too bahh XD

Kedah
It was an okay story, and the acting was above average, and they were just okay... But the dancing, oh gosh they bought cheesiness to a new level, so damn cheesy!!! It was about a bitchy spoiled misunderstood brat named Roxy who moves in to live with her new stepfather, along with her mother and her stepsister, Roxy becomes nice eventually, after ill treating her parents and the sister like a bitch.... I forgot why she had a conversation/argument/embrace with her step sister Ashley, and convinces her to get a tattoo on he rbum and to go clubbing with her... Being the nice girl she is, Ashley originally declines but says yes eventually, being the low confident person she is..... Oh yeah i forgot to mention the very cheesy living portraits hanging on the wall, the guy is so cheesy!!! He danced to I Like To Move It all of a sudden, and pretty cheesy dance moves at that! The girl portait believes that all good is obtained by free will while the guy portrait believes in...... I forgot already, after the cheesy dancing, i didn't pay attention to him..... So Ashley ends up getting aids and her stepfather dances to a cheesy unknown song that her mother stops is what happens next, and then 5 years into the future the family meet up one last time, where the parent haven't seen their two daughters for 5 years, and at the reunion..... Ashley dies, so so so sad :(

Penang
The cheese of the show, it was like tasting a cheese burger filled with cheese made patties and cheese made buns.... Well, at least it was entertaining, it's about a young boy who tries to find the answers in life, because he's too stressed with exams, well, why don't you tell the answers to the other 20 millions teenagers in Malaysia who are also stressed of exams among other things ?!? The story was cheese, they combined three form 4/5 literature (Life's breef candle, The Necklace, The Lotus Eater) Into this play, and the play was long, it over exceeded the time limit, they just had to the cheesiest ending ever, with the dancing, the talking, the SINGING, ish........ The character Tom Wilson is very entertaining though, and he's the best of the bunch..... The king was okay and that woman is plain annoying along with that boy......

Terengganu
It was boring at most times, I fell asleep, sorry, their props were superb, and the narrator girl was really good, but the story is the problem, it was boring, they did an adaptation of Lawrence Of Arabia, I can't comment much, I fell asleep....

Selangor
They were, hate to say it, really really really good, their costumes and props were masterclass, the voice projection was a joy and the language was a little iffy, but it was good, it's about a seemingly brilliant scientist named doctor Faustus who traded his soul to the devil for 24 years of success with the seven greatest sins in the world despite being warned by the angel he did it and 24 years later we get to see that he becomes a poor lonely stressed old man and that "the greatest gifts" are the seven deadly sins, and he dies... It was a painful joy to watch..... And for some reason every other state hates them, they say that they are mean and snobbish... So noone was happy for them, OOH!!!! They got to use microphone and they get to use the curtains, UNFAIR!!!

So we got to rest until 8.30, we had to do something to get the stress of results coming and the ending (*tear) so we had fun, running around, switching rooms, talking with states, vibrating each other..... Then results, we all shared a bus with Labuan and once there it was rwally formal, there were a few performances of singing and dancing, I cried during one of them, because it reminded me too much of the journey.... Then results, public speaking first, Selangor won, gosh, and then drama results, They did a really sinister move, they called each school one by one to go on stage to collect their consolation prize as they are elimenated, it was nerve wrecking, i was like "please, not sabah, any state but sabah" Kedah were the first once ousted, followed by Pahang and then all the way to the last school to get ousted, Labuan

Then we realized we were in the final three, everyone in the team screamed for joy, and then Sarawak was called as third, we screamed again, realizing we made it to FINAL TWO of the nationals!!!!! OMG The both states were called below stage and with dramatic music, seriously, they played dramatic music for more suspense, everyone was cheering loudly for Sabah, even i screamed Sabah, ufortanely after a long wait, they ended it with Selangor winning, and as Selangor got on stage almost noone clapped, but when we got on stage everyone was clapping so hard, and we got a standing ovation from one of the teams, and there were lots of shouts.....

So, at least I got a trophy XD, after the anouncement, KL went to console us, telling us we should have won, either that or they just don't like Selangor, muahahahahaha, many states said congrats to us..... And then group photos, we took lots XD

So that was the end of the journey stretching for about 7 months, I love you guys so much that it would tear me up to ever let go of the memories we shared together XD

So for, Chin, Woosnam, Ralph, Jude, Raul, Adriance, Orlando and Nathaniel, I can't believe you guys are leaving next year, and I hope you have a great life, like how great you made my life turn into XD Love you seriously do!!!

And Teacher Haslinda, I love you so much, thanks for putting up with me every step of the way, you are the best teacher any kid could ask for, have a spectacular time, just like how made my time with drama team spectacular....

And ofcourse too Hazli, what can I say? You are one of the greatese people I have ever met, and your emotions and maturity stuns me, I love you dude, I hope you'll stay with us next year too, but you also have your own life XD

Love you all, even all the teams we fought in the past and all the states in nationals (yes, even Selangor) Thanks for making my life darn brilliant.... Gosh I'm starting to cry right now, hehe

Love Josh

Hi

2009-10-18T09:26:00.000-07:00

It's 12.27 AM, and I can't sleep at all, why even bother? I ONLY HAVE LIKE 3 HOURS OF SLEEPINGT IME LEFT before the airpot..... So I'm just gonna blog before I go, because it's TECHNICALLY today, yes! today is the reason why I put all those SEEMINGLY pointless countdown underneath each post.....

TODAY IS PENANG DAY!!! I can't wait to do stuff there, my friends!!! I can't wait for my friends XD Thanks to everyone who wished the LS Drama Team 2009 good luck, we really appreciate all the support XD

Today is gonna be a good day....

Countdown : 0 days to Penang

Beecause today is Penang, now the countdown must die XD

Tomorrow and Tomorrow and Tomorrow

2009-10-18T07:12:00.000-07:00

I hope we win. I know we'll win. We will win. There are the words going through my head right now, but I can't be too overconfident, for all I know we won't even make it to the final six *pali-palis* But goddamnit, I want it, I WANT IT BADLY.... Oh wells at least we made it this far...... Damn, I wanna win.... Penang is tomorrow..... Urgh....

On a lighter note~
HAZLI IS COMING, HELL YEAH!!! I almost thought he couldn't but last minute he called and saiBlogger: My Internet Journal - Create Postd he can XD XD XD SO HAPPY!!!!

And ooh!!! People keep asking me to delete "obscene pictures >:( even when I set it to private so only a selected group of friends can see it, still want to delete :( comeone it's for the memories!!! XD

Bye~ gotta rest now

Countdown : 1 day to Penang

Today was the epitome of AWESOME XD

2009-10-17T02:54:00.000-07:00

so TODAY IS THE LAST DRAMA PRACTICE, yeah, you heard me, the last because win or lose the competition will end in Penang... DAMNIT!

Nevertheless, today was AWESOME, the best practice ever XD If only Hazli was there :( I finally feel like I belong in the team, noone can EVER take what I experienced from me, and for that I would love to thank the entire LS Drama team for making it all happen, I would be a wreck without you guys XD

PENANG XD Just 2 days, and i have to be at the airport by 4.30 AM XD

This post is too short for such an awesome day, so I'm doing a last minute update right before midnight, I'm packing now XD, yeah, I'm ACTUALLY PACKING.... Why so early? Well, because tomorrow I'll have to sleep by six so I can wake up at 12/1 AM and REALLY get ready, and I'm probably going to procrastinate tomorrow, so I'll have to pack now XD An else ahhd yes, that picture tells exactly how much I've packed so far, so I still have alot more to go XD

Ofcourse the awesome shirt Raphael made us, thanks man, your awesome too! XD I love the orange and the black clahing together, me likey, and ofcourse our quote, which I gladly give credits to Chin :D

And ofcourse, the Sabah, we're representing Sabah!!! WOOT!!! The patriotic Sabahan spirit, I can finally feel it XD

Special thanks to (in no particular order)
Woosnam. James. Raphael. Chin. Valentine. Ralph. Andy. Jude. Roussell. Adriance. Orlando. Nathaniel. Raul. Jonross.

And..... Hazli.

Countdown : 2 days to Penang

Practice. Packing. Penang

2009-10-16T03:12:00.000-07:00

Today I had school, borin school.... Nothing particularly significant that is blog worthy to post here :D So, there was practice today, well, there was no practice actually, it was mostly packing the props for Penang and discussions about Penang, the rules, what to do and what not to do.

Let' see, we got our new Drama shirts today!!!! WOOT!!!! I'm like an M or L (okay, i'm not fit, don't laugh :p) but I got a size S, hahahahaha, it actually fits nicely, well, at least that's what I think, but I love the shirts !!! I love the orange in it :D!!!

So, I have to reach the airport by 4.30 AM!!!!! I'm having mixed feelings about that though, I love the idea of staying up all night and immediately going to the airport but I dislike being there that early, muahahahahahaha

Tomorrow is the last day of practice ever, KILL ME, I love drama, and it's almost over, so I wanna say if any of my mates are reading this, I FREAKING LOVE YOU GUYS!!!! :D

Well that's all folks :D

Countdown : 3 days to Penang

Finally got my phone back :D

2009-10-14T23:42:00.000-07:00

So, I finally got my phone back, weeeeee :D Cikgu Safri was actually there......... WELL THERE WAS FOOD IN THE TEACHER'S LOUNGE, SO MAYBE THAT'S WHY :p Suprisingly, no scratches, no bruises no bumps, despite being there for a whole two weeks

So I did get to send my consent letter today, teacher gave me the letter at school, and after school ended I quickly ran to my dad, asked him to sign and ran back to teacher and sumbitted it, along with my passport-sized photo ofcourse

School overall WASN'T ACTUALLY THAT BAD, it was boring as heck, but still, it wasn't bad. Penang so close, and tomorrow is our first practice in A LONG TIME

Countdown : 4 days to Penang

Regrets.Names.Anxiety

2009-10-14T00:56:00.000-07:00

I missed school today as most of you know, DAMN, i regret it now, I was suppose to get a consent letter from my teacher and I missed it..... Shit! I NEED that letter for Penang, but oh wells, I managed to work it out with my teacher, so I'm getting the letter tomorrow, and I have to take a passport sized photo by tomorrow....

Oh yeah, WTF, who the hell is using my name on Val's and my cbox??? It's getting freaky, oh well, I guess i should be flattered, I HAVE MY OWN FOLLOWER :p and WTF, Joshidiot?!? Choose a better screen name damnit :(

I don't wanna go to school, not because I'm lazy, well maybe a little, but mainly because I think classes are pointless and that for me, I mean I don't listen, not even the slightest in class, so why bother right? and i ABSOLUTELY HATE the school environment, so that crushes school patriotism for me, the only reason I go to school is Drama and exams, honestly, other than that I see NO POINT....

Countdown : 5 days to Penang

Slap me and tell me to study

2009-10-12T19:38:00.000-07:00

I'm starting to get lazy, and i'm starting to get distracted from my studies, shit, i knew it would come to this, i knew that my hard working feeling was just temporary.... Shit, I procastinate too much :(

I still haven't gotten my phone back, so I'm planning to get it on friday, it's so stressful, cikgu safri, where the hell is he??? His suppose to give me back my phone 2 weeks ago, WTF owh

So recently I've been analyzing my life, and I realized that, I let WAY TOO MUCH people take me for granted, it's like I can't talk to anyone, you know, i don't even tell my best friends eveything, because they would call me emo shit like that, so it's really starting to feel unhealthy.... Another thing I realized is how addicted i am to drama, I mean look at all my posts, 90% oh them is all dramarama, it's almost like it's my life, maybe it's because DRAMA GAVE ME A LIFE, shit, all this things cramped inside my thoughts are starting to come out and I have almost noone to tell them about, oh well, I guess I'm on this journey alone, hell, that sounded so corny...

Countdown : 6 days to Penang

4Oth Post / One more week

2009-10-11T21:44:00.000-07:00

So cheers, this is my 40th post, so happy about that hahahahaha, yeah, 40 may seem like a tiny number to all those bloggers who've been blogging since primary school days, but 40 is a big number for a lazy person like me hahahaha, and yes, I'm counting all the posts i deleted :P

What else, oh yesh, JUST EXACTLY SEVEN DAYS/ ONE MORE WEEK, okay, I know in one of my previous posts I also said one more week, but today is THE REAL one more week, so excited XD, but one thing keeps on going on to my mind, when the hell is my postponed exam, since i'm missing it, going to Penang..... Hopefully it's later then I think it is XD

Oh yesh, I know the holiday only stretches until tomorrow, but I'M NOT going to school on wednesday and thursday.... Why? Simple, because i don't see myself actually listening to the pointless classes and having to deal with the confidence killing school environment, so why bother wasting my time, when I know it's MUCH MORE effective to study at home then at school, going on friday though, it's the next drama practice, the ONLY GOOD REASON of why I should go to school

Countdown : 7 days to Penang

Unfair owh

2009-10-10T21:34:00.000-07:00

I just found out i'm addicted to blogging, so addicted, since there is nothing to do at home.......... MY BLOG IS MY ESCAPADE...... What else to write about ahh??? Hmmmm, oh yesh, new drama competition rules, so their gonna split the 13 schools competing so that means Labuan isn't competing and KL is, so that means one of the states dropped out, ooohhh, that means less competition, muahahahaha, I'm evil....

So anyways, back on topic, the new rule is, we're split into two groups, one with 7 schools, the other with 6, and the three best from each group advances to the ACTUAL final stage of the competition, whoah, I hope my school ends up in the group with ONLY six schools, less competition, hahahahaha, again I'm evil :p but seriously, I find this rule unfair and stupid, what if one group was made up of entirely superb plays, and the other group sucks?? So that means many of the good ones won't get a chance to be seen, WTF, so unfair owh :(

Countdown : 8 days to Penang

SD Card XD

2009-10-09T22:43:00.000-07:00

For days, wait no, WEEKS, I've been desperately tryin to get a new SD card for Penang, because I have 4GB one for my camera, but 4GB won't last me for 4 days, so I just bought one from Karam Munsing :D OKAY, NOW THAT REALLY SOUNDS LIKE A BORING SHITTY UPDATE but seriously, I'm happy that I finally got an extra SD Card, just for the sake of Penang IT SEEMS LIKE I'M HAPPY ABOUT ANYTHING TO DO WITH PENANG....

Oh yeah and another thing, my mom FINALLY replaced the crappy fridge in the kitchen, LG SUCKS, so we're getting Hitachi :p

Oh yeah, I've been trying to put a chat box on here, but IT'S SO HARD owh to find, damnit :(

Countdown : 9 days to Penang

10 Days from now and counting......

2009-10-08T18:19:00.000-07:00

Penang is just 10 days, and yes that's the Penang flag, not because I don't love Sabah anymore, trust me, i love Sabah way more than Penang but it's because I'm excited to go there, oh, I can't wait, I'm so excited, but can't be too excited because I have to do loads of studying also.... Did I forget to mention that Penang is on the same week as the final exam??? Oh yeah I did, I GET TO MISS EXAM DAMNIT!!!!! hell yeah, and I only have to endure 2 more days of school (thursday/friday) before Penang, WooHoo!!!!!

But on a sidenote, aside from the whole Penang craze, I've been addicted to sudying outside in the fresh air, as geeky as that sounds, I love to smell the nature and I can smell the tender (credits to Chin~) Hahahahaha, so gonna study today :D

Oh yeah, and special thanks to my old school friend Vivien for recomending Char Kuey Teow to eat in Penang so gonna try that :D

Countdown : 10 days to Penang

Dogshit, peeing, modem, penang, memorabilias and whatnots

2009-10-07T22:22:00.000-07:00

So the thing that pisses me off so much is my bloody modem, I mean, WTF, many times i called goddamn tmnet, and they do nothing NOTHING, WTF, the modem sucks, it offs itself in a matter of minutes, so I have to write this post really fast before it offs itself..... I just finished cleaning dog shit and pee on the floor in the living room, well, my dog didn't go out today :( And I'm still so super hyped about Penang, so close yet so far, god damnit, I can't wait, I'M DYING TO GO............... Oh wells, PATIENCE IS A VIRTUE, i try to tell myself that *calm down josh calm down*

What also pisses me off is my laptop, WTF, the charger won't work, I had to use a back up laptop and it sucks! Stupid laptop chargers, why does mine have to suck so much?!? Urgh :(

Another agenda is I found a home for my drama memorabilia, the ski mask! the one i got from Sandakan....

Oh yeah, ONE MORE THING..... yesh people I CAN GO TO PENANG and no I DIDN'T CANCEL just to make it clear, if anyone of you are still unsure if i can go....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAZLI :D

2009-10-07T20:07:00.000-07:00

So today is the suposed invasion on Borneo by the Indonesians, it's sounds like bullshit though and (if you don't know check this link http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2009/10/4/focus/4839822&sec=focus) oh yeah, today is HAZLI'S BIRTHDAY Y'all yup no longer a teen, his 20 years old, man that's old, just kidding......... Anyways if your reading this blog which I'm sure your not, I just wanna say that your an awesome guy and I'm honoured to have you as a friend, so yeah, happy birthday friend :D Can't wait to see you and the guys in Penang, it's GONNA BE AN AWESOME TRIP GUYS :D so happy holidays and good luck to Valentine, it's the second day of PMR today :D

Dude, Damn sexy my brows!

2009-10-07T05:58:00.000-07:00

So it's just one week so might as well blog all week right??? Now let's talk about this, my brows, yes, my EYE BROWS, yes, it's been waxed, these brows caused lots of trouble these past few days, LOTS OF TROUBLE oh, I'm getting used to them now, in fact, I don't think I look that bad anymore, some people may call it ugly, but i don't, i call it unique, and not retard unique, as in, nice unique..... I can't give away too much about how it got waxed but i'll give a hint, it was in school, yeah, in school....

i swear i thought my mom was going to kill me at first after she noticed them it was like....

Okay.... me my mom

joshua! what's that?!?

what's what???

those, your brows, what happened to your brows?!?

what brows?!?

you are in so much trouble

what brows?!?!?!?!?

your eye brows! you shaved them didn't you?!?

oh yeah, urgh, yeah!

that's it!

believe me, that wasn't it, there was threats about Penang and ALOT OF ARGUING to the point i stupid put it on fb in anger, yes ANGER then when the Drama team found out they were mad at me, I can't blame them, I'm mad at me too, this entire almost cost me my trip to Penang, and I don't even want to mention about my phone getting confiscated, that's CONFIDENTIAL :D

Just stress

2009-10-06T19:33:00.000-07:00

I'm so lazy to blog, I've always promised myself that I will blog everyday about well, everything, but........................................
Life has been so stressful lately that I don't feel like it....... So much pressure and drama going around these days, and no, I'm not gonna blog about it because......

why should i expose my dirty little secrets to the whole world???

I Wish that life was easy again, back to the simple drama team filled days, but I'm being selfish by saying that it's PMR for god sakes, I should wish Valentine the best of luck, I shouldn't go waxing of my brows, I shouldn't do anything bad, I shouldn't complain, well I'll try, it'sJUST ONE MORE GODDAMN WEEK, i try to tell myself to just be patient it's just 1 more week, 1 more week, 1 more week.............. gosh, anxiety is such a dangerous state to be in......

It's almost over *tear

2009-10-02T02:42:00.000-07:00

I'm finally starting to see the end, the end of the school year, the end of the SM La Salle Drama Team 2009, oh the times we had, vibrating, practices, being upset, being filled with joy, winning, hahahaha.... I just miss it so much, I feel strangely emotional writing this post, well Penang is in 2 weeks, so we'll make more memories there :) But what would happen after? win or lose we'll still have to split..... I mean, sure there's drama next year but without our director, Ralph??? who is like our boss/friend, without Chin??? what would we do without his humour?!? without Jude??? Without Raul?!? Without Orlando??? Without Nate??? Without Adriance??? Without Woosnam???
And ofcourse, without Hazli?!?

I think I'll go crazy thinking about it, and have to study again,

I really wanna get to vega next year so yeah....

Anyways here's some pics of the fun times :)

Finally!!!!!

2009-09-19T21:27:00.000-07:00

September 16 2009 was the day I'll always remember..... NIKON DAY!!!!!!! I bought a Nikon D3000 entry level DSLR Camera WOOOT!!!!! It cost around RM2288 and it came with a free bag and a 4gb sd card......

I fucking love this camera owh!!! I never leave the house without it and in those rare times I don't use it, I make sure I always charge :p I love the pictures it takes, I love the lens, I lve the settings and the buttons!!!!!! hahahahaha, I'm so in love~

Chin's Birthdayy

2009-09-06T05:29:00.001-07:00

Happy Merdeka Day Guys!!!

2009-08-30T09:13:00.000-07:00

Happy merdeka day!!!!!! Who knows, maybe this holiday might just awaken the patriotic spirit in me, haha... No school again, haha, even if there was school, we probably wouldn't have any subjects because of some special merdeka event at school :) So anyways, I hope anyone who actually reads this will have a happy and prosperous merdeka day as corny as that sounds :)

Boring!!! Urgh....

2009-08-30T08:26:00.000-07:00

So today is the last day of the OVERRATED HOLIDAYS (second last, because tomorrow is Merdeka, but it's the last I get to sleep late and use the laptop all night) This probably has been the most boring holiday break this year.... I wasted it, doing absolutely nothing.... Although through the holidays I became a fan of Muse, I never really loved their music before but damn, United States Of Eurasia and Uprising are good as hell :p

Create a playlist at MixPod.com

Update

2009-08-29T06:39:00.000-07:00

It's raining outside and today is 29th August 2009 :) School is coming, I don't know what to feel about it, I'm having mix feelings about it... I don't hate going to school but I definitely don't love it..... Merdeka day is coming up and I'm surprised there are no huge advertisements or commercials about usually there is one every year, but what happened? The patriotism is gone i guess :( But oh wells, I'm not a patriotic person anyways... Another thing I noticed is that girls ALWAYS update their blog every single day, I wonder how they stop being lazy and just do it, hahaha, a blog is probably like a public diary to them :p

So, this entire week is well, BORING.... My dad bought a new television for the living room because the last broke, but that's pretty much it... Okay that's it for today, hopefully I'll blog again tomorrow :)

Monologue....

2009-07-02T06:58:00.000-07:00

It's so hard, if only they assigned us to do our own theme, but oh well, since I wanna be a journalist I guess it counts as some kind of experience.... So, I'm trying to really figure out how to pen down my monologue, I am half finished, the easy part, but it's so hard..... Now, I have to find a prop again, uhhhhh, oh well....

Got rejected from English Camp:(

2009-07-02T06:52:00.000-07:00

Okay, when teacher told me "I was too good" for that camp, I knew she was bullshiting, so I admit, I was emo and sad that she didn't pick me, I was thinking "Why the fuck didn't you pick me, lady?" and then at the end of school I went to her office, and I ask if I could join, and she sad it was full, and that she will "try again" and she went on to say if i were to join, would I be active in the activities and I said to her " I would be extremely active" and she smiled, and I walked away, turns out she wasn't the one who chose the people going, oh no, there's some other lady, whatever name she has... But I'm feeling okay now, thinking back on it, my attitude was rediculous, I should have just let it go, it's just some stupid camp right?

I'm NOT Useless (Not even 30%)

2009-06-30T08:12:00.000-07:00

So, today was school, and I haven't updated my blog for I think 3 o 2 days.... But big news, we won the drama competition, we actually did! :D But competition's not over at all, it's just about to start. Next is Sandakan, wow, so looking forward to it...... The competition is going to be more
intense and hard, and I can't wait to see what the other school's have been doing:) Oh yeah, and here's to the person (I won't say who) who said I was 30% useless, NO WAY!!!!

Emotions

2009-06-25T06:38:00.000-07:00

I know that many people who create blog vent out their emotions on it, but I don't and can't because blogs aren't private at all.... But oh well, this is probably a stupid post anyway that I'm ruining... So drama competition is tomorrow, so nervous, I mean, my part isn't important at all, but just the training all those months is finally going to be payed off, I just have this itching feeling that will win oh.... I know that I've been showing a negative and emo demeanor, so I'm sorry if someone from the drama team is reading this, that I act like a retarded, emo, whiny bitch, I just like don't know how to act more differently, it's just me I guess.... And yeah, I love being in the drama team it's like one big family.... :)

I'm So Unhealthy:(

2009-06-23T06:20:00.000-07:00

Hello there, so today was quite good.... I went too school BUT because of the circumstances of the drama competition being so near, I went out early, like after the second period:) So drama went out as usual until about 3pm.... During drama class, i found out, that I have an awkward walk and that my body is awkward, I have like lots of back fats, so I tried push ups, and only did 3, it's so useless like me. I'm so freaking unhealthy that now I wonder how long I will even live.... huhhh, I wish I took better care of myself....... After that, nothing else happened........

Hi

2009-06-21T05:09:00.000-07:00

It's Sunday, but I missed Sunday school and church because I woke up too late.... So, today went through normally, and I hate normal, but anyways, my mom asked me to help take out all the stuff in her closet, and I did.I found a video camcorder and a polaroid camera, and my mom gave it to me..... That was enjoyable:) So, it's a boring boring day........ Sorry for the short post.....

Update: June 20, Sturday

2009-06-20T06:01:00.000-07:00

Sorry I didn't update yesterday, internet disconnected suddenly.... So anyways, today is Saturday which means no school:) Today was disappointingly BORING, urgh........ Oh yeah, I took my dog to the doctor for a check up, and they had to bandage her, but she kept on opening it, so the vet had no choice but to leave it open, so I have to take my dog to the vet again tomorrow... But besides that, the only other thing is that I just came back from Pizza Hut... So that's all:)

Update: June 18, Thursday

2009-06-18T06:57:00.000-07:00

It's Thursday!!! Oh wait, I hate Thursdays :) So, school.......... I almost failed Geography actually I did fail :( but then teacher gave us all an extra three marks, thank gosh........ Phew, now, that's out of the way, everything else is dull...... Except for Drama, Drama is never dull :) I was suppose to sell my phone to my friend but my mom was all bitchy about it, and when I still asked her about it, she actually cried and gave me the phone complaining on how I should give it to my grandma, I feel kinda like crap right now, so yeah, that's all....

Postponed:(

2009-06-16T05:03:00.000-07:00

So, school, urg, I hate school, anyways, school went though as normal, study this, study that, talk here, talk there, but the thing that really shocked me was that the Drama competition has been postponed and there was no practice today, damnit! They don't have a real date yet, I bet it was because because the other stupid schools complained or something, urgh..... So that's all for today, because everything is pretty much dull as dishwater so bye....:(

Just Can't Stop Smiling :)

2009-06-15T07:11:00.000-07:00

So, I woke up late today and missed school, I would be happy for that, but I don't know, I kinda wished I went to school (weird, right?) But, ofcourse, trying to be as comitted as I possibly could I couldn't ditch Drama practice...., it's like the thing that keeps me moving (as corny as that sounds) And I just don't why, I can't get pissed today...... I just can't stop smiling..... Huh, well the day went on as normal, went home at 4 and oh yeah!!! We got to take my dog back from the vet!!!! Woah!!!! I'm so happy!!!! :):):):) more smiles!!! Goodnight!Oh My Gosh!!!! Just 3 more days to the Drama Competition!!!

Last Day Of Holiday

2009-06-14T08:30:00.000-07:00

I love you, dear Holiday, you lifted me up when I was sad, you convincedme that life was worth it and taught me so many things that I could not live without, I cherished the times we spent together but sadly you had to go, and leave me hear all alone to rot..........

Okay, what I wrote up there ^^^ is absolute crap, but that's not the point, the point is, holiday's almost over, damn! I miss not being in school to study (other than Drama of course), I miss sleeping all day, I miss the times when I would go on facebook when I'm bored or feeling down and I miss youtubing for hours and hours just to get a laugh, ahhh, sweet holiday.... But as they say, all good things must come to an end, uhhh, I wish it was longer............ Oh yeah, and I would like to give a big fat thanks to the doctor that saved my dog's life:)
4 more days to drama competition!!!

Scheduled Outage?

2009-06-12T21:24:00.000-07:00

My dog's blood on my bed

Sorry, I didn't have time to post yesterday, I was too busy because my dog got sick, it was really scary because her stomach suddenly leaked blood everywhere, so I was screaming to my grandma to take her to the vet because my uncle was suppose to do that, but he was so late, and I just couldn't wait, so we rushed quickly to the vet clinic and pretty much after that everything was alright....

So I woke up today, made a tweet on my twitter, in fact I don't even anyone else I know uses twitter, so I'm all alone :((sad) But anyways, it's about 12.43 pm oh yeah, I almost forgot, what the hell is this scheduled outage???? Questions in my head:
Are they going to delete all my post??? Is it temporary??? How long???
But that's all for me, oh yeah, can someone please register on twitter.com and find me, I'm so lonely:(, lol....

5 more days to drama competition!

My Dog

2009-06-11T05:52:00.000-07:00

So today went by normally, went to school, met my friends, had fun, that's pretty much it. Bla, bla, bla, I went back home at 4 pm, and went online almost entirely because I was so bored... But being alone in my house feels much better than being with family, well, at least for me. My dog is in my room right now and his really really really hungry, so I'm going to go feed him, that's all!

Seven more days to drama competition!

My Overall Fake Attitude

2009-06-10T06:10:00.000-07:00

Woke up at seven am went to school, did drama practice and got bored..... Fakeness, the one thing that I admit I sometimes am, I'm ashamed of it when I first realized it at drama, Emo fakeness, judging people, I realized that I have to stop all this shit but at the same time remember who I am as a person and not if other people judge me... So what? If you think I'm a retard, I'm a retard, If you think I'm gay, I'm gay, I don't really care anymore, I'm just trying to be me. So at school I smiled more, talked more, trying getting read of all the fakeness that corrupts me. Well, other than that, nothing much happened, me and Roussell talking to each other all day. Other than that, have a safe flight back James!

8 more days to Drama competition!

It's An Emo World Out There

2009-06-09T08:02:00.000-07:00

Okay, okay, for a bunch of people that know me this is the thing they often call me, "Retard"(lol) and "Emo", but anyways I'm posting to talk about Emo, I guess when I don't speak and try to look as not annoying as possible I come across as emo, I admit that I've been truly emo in my life, but I don't feel Emo most of the time, I might look Emo on the outside but I feel okay inside, so I just wanted to write this to speak what I'm feeling, that's all....

Update: Tuesday, June 09 2009

2009-06-09T06:59:00.000-07:00

So, my sister woke me up at nine in the morning with her cousin, because they were having some kind of sleepover last night. My mom told them to wake me up because I had to go to drama PRACTICE and I did. So I arrived there at 10.30ish, Roussell was there already, so i went and talked to him for a little while, probably being very socially awkward at the same time, when we realized that most of the drama team was gone. So we went to the Indian restaurant to eat along with Chin because we thought they were there, and they were not there, but oh well, we ate and went back, by the time we went back, they were already there warming up.. So practice soon ended fairly early, probably because my dad picked me up fairly early to visit my Grandma in the hospital, and everything else was me in my room resting, me feeding my dogs and me feeding my cats, well, that's all for now, goodnight!

Monday Night Blues

2009-06-08T05:37:00.000-07:00

I took this picture today, a bag full of cigarettes. It's not much, but I feel a little moody tonight. All alone at home, my sister's are at my uncle's house, my dad is at work, my mom is at Tawau. But it's normal, I get left alone at home quite often now, overtime schedules and no family ties, sigh....... Sometimes I just feel like taking a puff, but I can't because I'm too much of a pussy (Ha ha) and I don't want anything to go wrong with my lungs because it's already caught asthma and I'm against it, but NOT the people using it.

Love The Team

2009-06-08T00:58:00.000-07:00

So, I had to go to school for some extra curricular activities (drama), I arrived at 7.30 am, I didn't know it was ACTUALLY 9 am, because my sim cad was brokened, I was wearing my "I'm That Good" shirt, as seen up there for a little confidence. Ofcourse, there was the beautiful stage......

The glamorous backstage.............

And not to mention, TOILETS! Ha ha....

Then we went out to eat, Indian food, and came back to do a little short play to make us not bored, the drama team is really like family to me, just like my friends, anyways that's all for now.

Messy Day To Start With

2009-06-07T03:41:00.000-07:00

I woke up at seven am? I think..... Anyways, my room was messy, as always............
It was a sunday, didn't go to church, i forgot, there's no sunday class today, or at least that's what i think and the day went by without anything memorable.... ugh.... My internet bugging me all day, crashing by itself, it's so annoying that I grabbed my modem and threw it agains the wall, ugh, very slow day.

Oh yeah, sunday, which means the school break is half over, damn, I wanted it to last forever, but I guess all good things must come to an end, right?